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a flower bloomed, and now its petals turned to ash
broken dreams fall like tears now, and you're aching
I searched hard for answers, but was left penniless
I saw the light in your eyes, and I smiled with you
but now all that is left is ashen, and lost with her
hold on, my friend, and the darkness will pass
posted by megan 12:44 AM

months

hours pass over my still frame, as I'm lying here each night
I can't sleep, and my mind's on you, wishing you were next to me
the days are harder, no respite from the aching, the emptiness
you are my life, you taught me how to smile when life was sad
we laughed together, and watched the world in all its beauty
I love you and I showed it through my eyes, felt it in your touch
our love was sealed with kisses, and born in Christ; immortal
we'll one day be together forever, a vow no one can break,
and our love no one can touch, so we'll hold on for awhile,
and I'll try very hard to smile, but I really can't for months.
posted by megan 11:53 PM

::frailty::

moments passed beneath each second's breath
treading lines stretched silver, glistening
as I'm wavering between smiles and insanity
posted by megan 12:11 AM

this world is completely colorless,
sunsets drained of light and warmth,
even springtime sighs, tired and worn
waves of gray, searching for their blue
but light has always illuminated you
your laughter warm and touch alive
I close my eyes to see your face,
grasp at the light that never leaves
posted by megan 1:50 AM

through stained glasses, your unclear perception
is tainted again, as you try so hard to rationalize
wondering why, chasing reason, watch it unwind
you can only grasp tangible, and your grip is tight
let it go, let it slip, watch it slide, open your eyes
it falls behind when its pulling you back, so let go, fly...
posted by megan 9:22 PM

::glass museum::

welcome inside me, where I've posted signs that ask you not to touch,
and to please talk softer when you have to point out the inadequacies
there's not much in here i put out for the viewing pleasure of everyone
and the storerooms are piled with what I wish you never had to see...
but you've paid your admission, and now here's the price I have to pay
i'll pull out the signs, unlock the doors... even take that rug off the floor
break me if you have to, i have nothing else to lose. i gave it all to you.


posted by megan 12:39 AM

fall down hard and reminisce.
countless times I'll never miss
traces of memories, grasping
this darkness to serenade me
close my eyes, block the light
but how can I block out sight?

fall back again, resign myself
to the shackles of what's past
marring my present with regret
naked, no covering my shame
I offer up another bowl of tears
downcast eyes filling with fears

but this love will not let me fall,
all my tears poured at His feet,
my only offering, its not enough
unworthy as I plead forgiveness
never thought I'd hear this again
as he whispered "my child, my love"
posted by megan 1:41 PM

Stinging flesh, swollen eyes
head swimming, my demise.
walking slowly, fading fast
one day's fun, now my past
drift back and focus some,
strain a little, see the sun.
hurried water, rush of wind.
hand to back, pay the price,
run inside and grab some ice.

after worshipping the sun, praise the Creator of aloe vera!
posted by megan 6:15 PM

...
posted by megan 10:20 PM

Another glance at my weary hands
and I can see nothing binding them
If I'm waiting for life to come to me,
I'm fooling myself, it'll pass me by.
The door swung open, I'm still here.
Confinement long deprived comfort,
and I'm screaming inside to run out
posted by megan 9:50 PM

::spin::

the wind is knocked out of me,

and now I'm groping for words

but everything thats behind them,

is locked up somewhere inside

my shaking hands lost the key

I love you isn't enough at times

it must just sound like an echo

If my head would stop spinning,

maybe then I'd find the key.
posted by megan 10:27 AM

Surreal... Eyesight blurs and reality gives way.
A vison of your face, your eyes piercing through...
Now I know what it means to feel swept away,
to be raptured, halfway whole until you seep in.
Sweet memories, set alive again by your laughter.
Now you're gone, but you're still here with me,
I can feel you and your eyes looking into mine.
posted by megan 10:59 PM

like a child

afraid that she'll be passed by...
I'm clinging to your shadow,
here in the hole you left behind.
everything I felt was with you,
so your words are a whisper,
and your touch is just a trace,
as the distance holds me gently
posted by megan 12:05 AM

Solitude

Would you leave me to my silence?
Understanding that I'm not empty,
I have no more lonely tears to cry.
I love it here, this peaceful place,
without running or keeping pace.
My laughter fills an empty room,
as dreams surround the stillness.

posted by megan 3:26 PM

On My Own Two Feet

I'm turning my back on the 'promises' this world has to offer,
no longer expecting my frail mind to satisfy my eternal soul.
I want to stand without falling, falling prey to my flesh,
on the one who does not change like shifting shadows.
Predictions keep coming and expectations rise each time,
But I won't trust anymore, I'm turning my back on all that,
and looking full in the face of the one who will never
turn his back on me.

posted by megan 8:23 PM

please stay here inside of me
sing in my ear a sweet melody
carrying away my melancholy
hold me tenderly from within
only you know the place I'm in

For the only person there with me thats not here with me.
posted by megan 9:57 PM

I'm starting to feel the vertigo,
the quickening and tightening,
will I soar or slowly fall?
Fears are still surrounding me,
promise to keep me company.
No longer can I live in this,
unbroken by life's first kiss.
Perching on the windowsill,
Dizzied by my standing still.
I'm shaking off the ashes,
preparing to take the plunge.
and you promised I won't fall,
alone outside your love.
posted by megan 12:15 PM

I throw my fists against a wall,
unrelenting, it confines me.
Full of frustration I slowly fall,
and cry out for release.
posted by megan 7:07 PM

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